Walang Ibang Hangad

Watch Hangad's all a capella concert
walang ibang hangad
July 8 and 15
6:00 pm
EPCI Tower 1 Francisco Santiago Hall
P150 entrance fee

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My Visual DNA

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Broken Sonnet

The Sonnet

Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLDf)

Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?

Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.

Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.

You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.

ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth

CONSIDER: The Loverboy

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

Witnessing

Here's another excerpt from a movie. Shall We Dance is about a husband (Richard Gere) taking ballroom dancing lessons & keeping it a secret from his family. His wife (Susan Surrandon) suspects that he is cheating & hires a private investigator to find out what her husband is really up to. In one meeting the wife had with the P.I., she asks him if he knows the reason why she got married. He guesses, "Love? Companionship?" and some other answers. The quote below is the reason she gave.

We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying, "Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness."

Letting Go

Excerpt from THE HOLIDAY. The scene these lines were taken from was when Miles (Jack Black) just finished telling Iris (Kate Winslet) the vicious cycle he goes through with bad girlfriends. Iris tells Miles that she means it when she says she knows exactly how he feels. She empathizes with Miles in terms of unrequited love, as she is also trying to get over Jasper, who is now engaged but doesn't stop keeping in contact with her.

"I understand the feeling as small &
as insignificant &
as humanly possible,
and how it can actually ache in places
that you didn't even know you had inside you.
and it doesn't matter how many haircuts you get or
gyms you join or
how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends,
you still go to bed every night
going over every detail
and wonder what you did wrong or
how you could've misunderstood.
And how in the hell for that brief moment
you could think that you were that happy.
And sometimes you could even convince yourself
that he'll see the light and
show up at your door.
And after all that,
however long that may be,
you'll go somewhere new,
and you'll meet people that would make your life worthwhile again.
And little pieces of your soul will finally come back.
And all that fuzzy stuff,
those years of your life that you wasted --
that will eventually begin to fade."

Intensified!

It's been eons since I last posted anything substantial here. It's not that there's nothing to share about what's been happening in my life lately. It's mostly a matter of laziness that's keeping me from updating this blog. haha!

After months of enslaving myself to our family business, I finally decided to cut my over-extended vacation & applied for a job. I got several call backs from companies I sent my CV to but I never went to interviews or to take exams. You could say that I was abusing my luxury of choice, but to me, I was doing just the opposite. No, it was not a matter of meeting the usual standards (e.g. salary, location of the work place, the company), but it was a matter of where I would be most happy. (Yes, my idealism still hasn't worn off.)

Then late November 2006, I got a call from the Ateneo Placement Office, asking if I were interested in being Fr. Dan McNamara's assistant in the MINISTRY OFFICE. (Note that Ateneo's ministry office is actually called CAMPUS Ministry Office.) Surprised that there was at least an opening at CMO, I grabbed the opportunity & said yes. The day after, however, I got a call back, not from CMO, but from MANILA OBSERVATORY. After realizing that I was given the wrong information, I was asked by the person at the other end of the line if I were still interested with the job since it wasn't in CMO. I took a moment before answering, & still, I ended up saying yes. Two days after, I came in to take some written evaluation & an initial interview. More that a week after, I got a call back from MO, informing me that I had passed the initial evaluation & asked to come back for a panel interview two days after. And I did.

Obviously, I passed with flying colors (yabang! haha!) that's why I'm now working there for almost two months now. My bosses are great, & within a short span of time, I already had an easy rapport with most, if not all of the staff members. I'm not sure how long I will be staying there, but it already feels like home. Ü

And now for a breather.

The following segment is an excerpt from a situation report from ADMU's Physical Plant Office dated February 6, 2007. When I read this, I laughed my ass off! Read on to find out why:

Last Monday night, 29 January, a taxi driver (former driver of a Loyola Schools student) & a yaya were caught in an embarrassing situation in an isolated spot at the Northwest carpark. On Wednesday night, 31 January, a Nissan Sentra without an Ateneo sticker was found parked in an isolated spot again of the Northwest Carpark. Campus security managed to take pictures of the couple inside the car. However, the driver managed to start the car & dashed out of the campus, almost running down two guards who were stopping him.

Checking of vehicles entering the campus has been intensified.

INTENSIFIED! Watta word! hahaha! (For me, the last sentence was the punchline of the entire segment. Ang babaw ko, ano?) Ü

The Movie Of Your Life Is Film Noir

So what if you're a little nihilistic at times? Life with meaning is highly over-rated. Your best movie matches: Sin City, L. A. Confidential, Blade Runner

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

Ah yes... I'm complicated in this way. haha!

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice. You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

WISH KO LANG! sigh...

Cuddly-doo!

I Am THE Star!

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Labinlimang Hangad

WTF?!?

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Chinky Siy!

1. Duelling is legal in Paraguay as long as both parties are Chinky Siy!--> Fight Club ba ito? haha
2. A thimbleful of Chinky Siy would weigh over 100 million tons.--> t*ng ina 'to ah! oo na, malaki na ako! ipaggiitan pa raw...
3. The patron saint of Chinky Siy is Saint Eugenie!--> Assumptionista ako?!? Oh my gad! I don't like to make tuhog the fishballs!
4. Chinky Siy is the largest of Saturn's moons!--> lintik. kanina ka pa ah.
5. The state nickname of Iowa is 'The Chinky Siy state'.--> why not?!
6. If Chinky Siy was life size, she would stand 7 ft 2 inches tall and have a neck twice the size of a human.--> pucha, palalakihin na nga ako lalo, di pa proportioned!
7. New Zealand was the first place to allow Chinky Siy to vote.--> rock on!
8. Chinky Siy does not have toes.--> so, what the heck do I have -- hooves?
9. Humans have 46 chromosomes, peas have 14, and Chinky Siy has 7.--> ako'y isang mababang nilalang... huhuhu
10. The canonical hours of the Christian church are matins, lauds, prime, terce, sext, none, Chinky Siy and compline.--> canonical hour ako?? wtf?!

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

For Vanity's Sake

I just had to see how this would turn out if I used my digitally-enhanced graduation photo...



I'm sorry... Zhang Ziyi again... 86%!!! I'm sorry.. star-studded na ito! Grabe, baka ma-starstruck ako sa sarili ko 'pag tumingin ako sa salamin mamaya! wahahahaha!

Sabi na artistahin talaga ako, eh!

putek benta!! hahaha



ito ang mas benta hahahaha

I'm sorry... Zhang Ziyi, Shiri Appleby?And of course... JERICHO ROSALES?!!? Di ba sabi nila yung mga magkahawig ang nagkakatuluyan? Paano ba yan, girls? Sorry na lang kayo! wahahahaha!!!

25 Songs, 25 Questions

Get your mp3 player & put it on shuffle mode. Press play & listen to the first 25 songs. Use a line from each song to answer the following questions. NO CHEATING – use song #1 to answer question #1, & so on. Try to keep the answers at least somewhat truthful.Ü

1. What is your life like right now?
“I’m so lost in my emotions.”
I Fall So Deep – Gary Barlow

2. What is your biggest fear?
“Sana’y pansinin ang tinig kong umaawit ng kundiman.”
Sabay sa Ihip ng Hangin – Hangad

3. What is one thing that would make you happy?
“That moment I knew, you were the one I could spend my life with.”
My Boo – Usher & Alicia Keys

4. What is your biggest secret?
“Long after the hillsides have crumbled away, there still My love will be.”
Love Untold – Hangad

5. Who are you in love with?
“It all comes down to faith, that’s the way I see it.”
God-Shaped Hole – Plumb

6. What will your future be like?
“I let it go.”
Kiss by Kiss – Emilia

7. What is your family like?
“’Pagkat ako ay para mong alipin.”
Nandito Ako – Lea Salonga

8. What is something that makes you feel sad?
“I love to see (her) him smile back at me, & I know (she) he is happy.”
All These Things – Stephen Speaks

9. What was your childhood like?
“Makapangyarihan ang pag-ibig na hawak mo sa ‘yong kamay. Ikaw ang (diyos) diyosa at (hari) reyna ng iyong mundo. Matakot sila sa ‘yo.”
Huwag Kang Matakot – Eraserheads (Orange & Lemons cover)

10. What is school like?
“Our days are full of passing faces, our hearts are bruised in many places, yet all shall be well.”
All Shall Be Well – Bukas-Palad

11. How is your love life?
“You’re switching sides like a Gemini.”
She Bangs – William Hung (Michael V. cover haha!)

12. What is something that excites you?
“Isipin mo na lang na may nagmamahal sa ‘yo.”
Hey, Jay – Eraserheads

13. What is something you love?
“Awiting malungkot, awiting masaya, dulot sa ati’y damdaming kakaiba.”
Hanggang sa Muli – The CompanY

14. What is something you hate?
“Does he like me like me, like I like him? Will we be friends or something more? I think he’s interested, but I’m not sure.”
Mix Tape – Kate Monster from Avenue Q, The Musical

15. What is something you find attractive in the opposite sex?
“I will not make the same mistakes.”
Because of You – Kelly Clarkson

16. What is your best memory?
“Be anyone you want to be, bring to life your fantasies.”
Burn – Tina Arena (Nina cover)

17. What is something that can make you laugh?
“I know you know what’s goin’ on.”
6th Day Medley – 6th Day

18. What is something you’re guilty of?
“Maybe I’m just a sentimental fool bringing back memories from a photograph of you.”
Photograph – Ariel Rivera

19. What’s the most fun you’ve ever had?
“I think I’ll follow the Voice that calls within, dance to the silent song It sings.”
Pilgrim’s Theme - Hangad

20. What’s something you want to do before you die?
“Just a little bit of happiness, it is all that I wish.”
Wishes – Nathan Morris

21. Something you want to say to your best friend:
“Wishin’ all of my daydreams come true, now baby what am I to do?”
Daydreamin’ – Tatiana Ali

22. Something you want to say to your (crush) love:
“Every prayer has been answered… I could not ask for more than the love you give me ‘cause it’s all I’ve waited for.” (the whole song, actually.. ¤sigh¤)
I Could Not Ask For More – Edwin McCain

23. Something you want to say to someone you hate:
“Makakaya ko ba kung tuluyang ika’y wala na at ‘di na makikita?” (rhetorical question haha evull!)
Wala Na Ba’ng Pag-ibig - Jaya

24. Something you want to say to someone you admire:
“Even the best fall down sometimes.”
Collide – Howie Day

25. Some last words you would like to give:
“I wonder if it’s worth [it – ] me holdin’ on.”
Half Crazy - Musiq


Credits to Cla Ü

That's All...

Oo na, huli na ako sa balita. I just watched The Phantom of the Opera movie a couple of nights ago. I didn't watch it on Broadway when we were in New York, but after watching the movie, I could just imagine myself on the orchestra seat, tissue in hand, with tears flowing down my cheeks. The movie made me cry, particularly the famous romantic duet of Raoul & Christine, & being the sentimental geek that I am, I'm pretty sure that I would sob my way throughout the play had I gone & watched it.

Music speaks to my soul. Listening to music is such a spiritual experience for me. I am so moved that even in a live rock concert, you might catch me a bit teary eyed amidst a full auditorium dancing about. Raoul & Christine's duet is no exception. As of today, I've listened to the song for more than ten times already, and the intensity of the effect the song has on me just keeps on growing...


ALL I ASK OF YOU
The Phantom of the Opera OST
click to download

RAOUL
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry -your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you

CHRISTINE
Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you, now and always
promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you

RAOUL
Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe: No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you

CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night
and you, always beside me
to hold me and to hide me

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you need me with you here, beside you
anywhere you go, let me go too - Christine,
that's all I ask of you

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
say the word and I will follow you

BOTH
Share each day with me, each night, each morning

CHRISTINE
Say you love me

RAOUL
You know I do

BOTH
Love me - that's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too

LOVE ME -

that's all I ask of You...

Fun with Puns!

Stolen from Merrie hehehe


few... ---------- lo pascual

if... ---------- fagfatawad mo

missed her... ---------- dj can i make a request, pwede ba yung love song ko?

tuwing... ---------- kol tuwingkol litol star

joseph... ---------- fruit gum

jewel... ---------- turre

anchor... ---------- tis.. anchor-ny!

below... ---------- tin mo akow ng hiwaga ng iyong pagmamahal

gems... ---------- yap! james k n b? yap yap yap!

amanda... ---------- top of the world looking down on creation and the..

come back... ---------- tumibok ang puso wala ka nang magagawa kundi sundin ito..

hey, busy?... ---------- D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

many... ---------- pacquiao, sosyal ka hah, slang slang ka pa..

some... ---------- milby, o bat biglang nawala slang mo?

when your dreams seem so far away..
when everything seems so distant..
just reach hard... ---------- gomez

eto lang ang masasabi ko sa mga jokes na ito..
super duper korny na... ---------- sanchez



nyork nyork nyork

What Now? Part 2

I just read Bea's recent post about life after graduation. It got me thinking about my own situation again.

I received two e-mails from two different organizations hiring fresh graduates. Having been fortunate enough to come from a prestigious university, I just realized how lucky I am to be able to literally sit & wait for opportunities to come to my doorstep. There are a lot of people out there who NEED to get jobs for their families but couldn't because the good jobs are reserved for people like me. Sometimes I feel that I don't deserve all of this. I probably don't. But those people out there who've been looking for jobs since forever to provide for their families don't deserve that kind of hardship either. It's just not fair. It's not fair that I get several opportunities to pursue my crazy ideals while there are others who cannot even afford to HAVE ideals. That's not right at all.

One e-mail was from a Fortune 500 company. Well-established, pays well, great benefits. They're looking for someone to work at Human Resources -- something that I have a lot of experience with in my college organization. It's also a bonus that I took a Training course as my Psych elective in senior year. Although I have some aptitude for this type of work, I don't feel that it's a job that I'd love & would fight for.

The other one was from an NGO aimed at public education. Still young but pretty established, have no idea if they'll be paying. They're looking for a Communications Officer or something like that. I like people. I love being with people. I communicate well with all kinds of people. Plus their cause is something that I'm very passionate about. BUT they want a sample of a written work. Back in grade school, I was told that I wrote well, but definitely not the same case in recent years. Maybe I write good formal letters, which is something that I have quite an experience with, but other than that, I have nothing Palanca-Award worthy to submit. And I don't know how to make posters using Photoshop.

The question in one of my previous posts still stands: WHAT NOW?

I thought that things would be clearer to me once I've graduated. I've planned it all out before even graduating from grade school. Amazingly, everything went according to plan, right up to graduation day last March. Now that it's all finally over, I'm quite surprised at how clueless I really am to dealing with the world, the REAL world. I've always seen myself as sensible, responsible, adaptable, a girl with a good head on her shoulders. But during my four years in college, I've come to know about the scared little girl inside me, afraid of trying out & doing things on her own, afraid of being alone. I guess I've still got a lot more growing up to do.

Life is ALWAYS more complicated than we think. I'm just glad that we learn something new about it every now & then.

21 Names

Nakaw again from Nanan (ito ang gawain ng mga unemployed haha!)

Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people. Don't changethe names you've written once you start answering the questions. Ready, Start!

1. Nono 2. Nanan 3. Beatot 4. Michee 5. Bea s. 6. TJ 7. Kia 8. Lota 9. Francis 10. Benj 11. Bodi 12. Cheenee 13. Cla 14. Vianx 15. Ruthie 16. Nicolo 17. Matts 18. Rica 19. Koonce 20. Teehankee 21. Rai


THE QUESTIONS:
1. How did you meet 14? ACIL
2. What would you do if you never met 6? mabubuhay naman siguro ako.. probably one good friend less.. naks!
3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? why not?! tapos kami naman ni Lota wahaha
4. Did you ever like 5? syempre, best friend ko yan eh. haha
5. Would 4 and 12 make a good couple? ay. micheenee. hahaha!
6. Describe 8: loka-loka, jologs, marunong makinig, creative, intelligent, masipag
7. Do you think 13 is attractive? aba oo! lahat ng friends ko attractive! haha!
8. Tell me something about 17: masarap kasama sa tawanan -- kabag ang aabutin mo!
9. Do you know any of 4's family members? met her kuya once. *drool*
10. What's 21's favorite color? blue
11. What would you do if 18 just confessed s/he liked you? sabi ko nga ba bakla ka eh. haha!
12. what language does 20 speak? Tagalog. English.
13. Who is 9 going out with? 8. e mag-asawa na yan eh. haha!
14. What grade is 16 in? senior year college
15. When's the last time you talked to 13? wow. tagal na!
16. What is 2's favorite band? Eraserheads -- With A Smile! Doo-do-doo-doooo!!
17. Would you ever date 7? naka-ilang dates na kami nyan, even before Benj. haha!
18. Would you ever date 12? why not? MemRel rules!
19. Is 15 single? hmm. di ko alam. hehe
20. What is 19's last name? Santos
21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 11? iba gusto nya eh. haha!
22. What school does 3 go to? e graduate na sya eh
23. Where does 15 live? bicol!
24. What's your favorite thing about 10? mahal nya si Kia! yikee!
25. Have you seen number 1 naked? ay. skandalo ito! wahahaha!!

Ateneo Cross-List

Nakaw (na naman) kay Nanan at kay Lem:

(x) eat at Manang’s (liempo, donut, biko)
( ) learn the alma mater song (school spirit! wahaha!)
( ) get on the dean’s list (huhu)
( ) sleep on a bench
( ) be a TNT!
( ) jog around the campus in the evening
(x) visit the art gallery (once)
(x) know at least one xerox lady (ate alma, ate jenny, ate evelyn, ate imelda)
(x) get a Jesuit for a teacher (Dacanay forever!!!)
( ) itch from higad bites (i survived!)
(x) have gotten an F in something (curse you, Math 12!)
(x) have taken a crap in school
( ) watch a La Salle vs. Ateneo UAAP game (sa TV ba counted? wahehehe)
(x) give a powerpoint presentation
(x) study in the caf (iba talaga pag cramming na)
(x) watch a T.A play (parang nakanood ako. di ko lang matandaan kung ano.)
( ) sit on the SEC ledge and watch the stars
(x) eat in Full House, Martha’s Kitchen, and Ken Afford (sara na yung full house and martha's nung 1st year kami)
(x) sleep in the lib (pag nagpapakanerd)
( ) visit Mr. San Andres
(x) go to the chapel
(x) have gotten a pebble stuck in your shoe/slippers in the middle of the quad (lalo na ngayon!)
( ) cut class with your block to watch a movie
(x) sign up for those institutional (i.e. difficult but brilliant)(Dacanay rules!)
( ) go to CERSA night
(x) have tried siomai rice
( ) learn how to smoke
(x) fall in love (talaga lang ha? haha!)
( ) actually read the book you keep borrowing from the lib
(x) play cards during your free time (sa ACIL ako natuto ng pusoy dos!)
(x) dress in business attire (wretched orals & defense)
(x) learn to stay awake for more than 24 hours straight (mornangs galore!)
( ) have gotten side comments from ASSOC
( ) take (and enjoy) Saturday classes
(x) go to your immersion
(x) eat Food for Thought sandwiches (wheat bread, salami, lettuce, egg, tomato! Nanan's Special! haha!)
( ) get a boyfriend/girlfriend again (hmm. haha!)
(x) take time to read the vandalism in the CR doors
( ) watch "Minsan Lang Sila Bata" and "Macho Dancer" for class (high school pa)
(x) do a last minute paper
(x) have spent a lot for 1x1 ID pictures
(x) get exempted from final exams (History 166 under Dr. Totanes)
(x) attend a college mass
( ) promise to quit smoking
( ) play hide-and-seek in the mini-forest
(x) know where the best restrooms are on campus (well, renovated na ang mga banyo)
(x) join an org (go ACIL!)
(x) allow yourself to make mistakes
(x) take summer classes (make-up for my Math 12, practicum)
(x) admire the sacred heart statue in the evening
( ) make a video for a project
( ) have a crush on a teacher
(x) attend a Jesuit retreat
( ) have gotten a parking ticket
(x) come to school in your crappiest yet most comfy clothes (esp freshman year)
(x) learn how to use the Bayantel pay phones
(x) participate in school activities
(x) catch the Blue Babble Battalion tryouts (sa caf)
( ) date an Atenean
(x) ride a tricycle on campus
(x) find a tambayan painting room! (sa old ACIL Rm. sa now inexistent Colayco Hall)
(x) admire the marikina valley at night (from the LHS Titanic)
( ) go drinking along Katipunan
( ) learn how to beg for a higher grade
(x) use your cuts wisely (i barely cut class)
(x) volunteer to be class beadle (Theo 141 under Dr. Tejido)
(x) had the worst lottery schedule for reg
(x) admire the trees on campus
( ) have forgotten about your freecut and gone to that class
(x) eat in the ISO canteen
(x) be active in your org (iisa na nga lang eh, tatamarin pa ako. haha)
( ) have signed up on an ACP class just because the girl or guy u like signed up for it (once lang nag ACP)
( ) get as many app forms as you can during the job fair (di ko pinuntahan!)
(x) learn how to cram
( ) sell tickets (or watch) an org-sponsored movie premiere
( ) save money to Xerox all of your seatmate’s notes
(x) have accidentally seen a make-out session (di pa nga by accident yun eh haha)
(x) check out the Meron Lagoon and Lambingan Bridge
( ) have dozed off in class in Bel right after a class in CTC/SOM/Comm. Bldg or vice-versa
( ) learn how to work with groupmates from hell
( ) perfect the art of parking on campus
( ) had a bad encounter with one of the guards on campus
(x) develop a love for sisig
( ) learn how to pronounce "AEGIS" properly
( ) have used typing rooms at the library
(x) have reserved a classroom, AVR, etc. for a class or org function
( ) have asked the library for an endorsement to research in other libraries
( ) have lost a perfectly functioning umbrella.
(x) have used consultation hours properly
(x) Looked forward to lab breakage refund, in case you didn’t break any equipment
(x) visit the Guidance Office and Infirmary

What Now?

What have I been up to these past few weeks since I got back from the US?

1. gave out my pasalubong
2. helped around in the family business
3. watched a few DVDs (e.g. Constantine, The Virgin Suicides)
4. met up with friends
5. weekends with the family
6. bummed around the house
7. currently reading 'Wicked' by Gregory Maguire (which inspired the hit Broadway musical that I never got to watch)
8. ignored several job opportunities

Yes, I am guiltily avoiding getting a job. Guilty, because I haven't gotten around to being the responsible daughter that I am. Guilty, because I can actually afford to take a break while most people, some of them my friends, have been busting their butts at work a few weeks right after graduation.

No, I do not plan on being like this (a bum) all my life. I just feel that I'm in a point where I'm not sure which step to take next. Do I compromise my dreams & settle for an available job that I can easily do & would no doubt please my family? I'm just afraid that if I get into something so far from what I really want, I might not be able to get out anymore. So what's keeping me from pursuing my dream? The timing, fear of disapproval. Those kind of things.

Let's say the timing isn't right. What am I to do NOW? I guess that's what's really bugging me right now. No, I'm not bored with the stress-free conditions that I have set myself up with. I guess after all the things I have done to enjoy myself, the hype's settling down & I'm starting to hear Reality's faint knocking on my door to actual adulthood.

I'll probably answer it when I hear the doorbell. Until then, I'm just going to sit back, iPod on ears, & 'Wicked' in hand.

Something's Fishy...

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