Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Blag

My Friendster Horoscope for today:
A loved one you've been thinking about fondly for some time has finally come around -- at least, it seems that way. There are several roadblocks in their way, however, many of which won't move aside easily. The hard part will be your urge to clear their way without enlisting any help at all from them. The harder part will be the absolute necessity of your letting go so that they can make this happen alone -- which is what will really count.
Surprisingly, I have a new crush. Yes, my stalkee finally has competition. Haha! Then again, my horoscope might be referring to my stalkee. Has he finally come around? (Rhett Miller's "Come Around" crooning in the background) Drama!

Just for the record: Hindi ko mahal si stalkee. Eye candy lamang s'ya. Nyahaha! Pero in fur-ness, I began to like him because he's really nice, has a sense of humor, very passionate, God-fearing... hay. Drool drool drool.

My new crush, on the other hand... well, let's just say I have a track record of being attracted to men I can't have. So let's just leave it at that. Sana hindi ma-develop at maging stalkee #2 ko s'ya or worse: mahalin ko s'ya. Deym.

Kakaiba. Sobrang conscious ang paghahanap ko ng boylet ngayon. Feeling ko seniors' syndrome na ito. Desperada ang lola n'yo. Shyet.

Hope hope hope... is the second name of my Educ Psy teacher. (Labo mode again.)

Letting go... yes. Heto na naman tayo. Ewan ko ba. Gusto ko nang umusad, pero ang higpit pa rin ng kapit ko sa 'yo. Pero ramdam ko na mas kaya ko na ngayon. Ewan. Baka ngayon lang 'to.

Hay leche. What an incoherent entry this is.

Monday, July 25, 2005

De-stress Call

I've been called a toilet bowl by a friend because I seem to have this great capacity to take in all the sh*t in other people's lives & make them feel better after they have expelled their demons.

Never mind if I'm a mess myself. Most of the time, it's unnoticable anyway.

Even if there are a ton of things that are going through my mind, I can set them aside to accomodate another person's ramblings.

Endless rants, piercing pains, ecstatic joys, you name it, I can handle it. Never mind me. They seem to be more in need than me. Then, the inevitable happens.

Drowning in my own pool of tears, that's the end of my day.

Yes, I am a living irony. I know when somebody is in need but won't let others know that I need them.

Once again, I have fooled everyone. "Outstanding performance!" is what I say when I look in the mirror.

Underneath my smiles & laughter, a helpless little girl is curling up in a ball crying everyday.


My Friendster Horoscope for today:
The Bottom Line
You're so ahead of your time. Like a time traveler. Interesting, what you think of!

In Detail
If you're at all worried that you might say or do something to offend someone, especially if you're pretty darned sure about who it is and what the situation might be, take someone along for the ride who's equipped to mediate in situations such as this. You know who to ask -- because you've probably had to call on them in the past for just such a reason. Remember, too, that it's not you they'll be watching out for. It's anyone who gets in your way or challenges your opinions.
'Di ko alam kung anong mas masakit, kung hindi ka na kailangan ng mahal mo o kung hindi malaman ng mahal mo na kailangan mo s'ya.

Ewan. Basta masakit.


Got this from Av's blog:

How to show girls you love them...

1. Tell her she is beautiful, not hot.

2. Hold her hand at any moment even if it's just for a second.

3. Kiss her on the forehead.

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. Always tell her how beautiful she is, no matter what she's wearing.

6. When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.

7. Recognize the small things . . . THEY USUALLY MEAN THE MOST!

8. Call her baby.

9. Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.

10. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.

11. Write her notes, she loves them.

12. Introduce her to family and friends as your girlfriend.

13. Play with her hair.

14. Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestle with her.

15. Sit in the park and just talk to her.

16. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.

17. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.

18. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

19. Carve your names into a tree.

20. If she's mad at you, apologize because SHE is always right.

21. CUDDLE.

22. Bring her flowers.

23. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

24. Look her in the eyes and smile.

25. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.

26. Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.

27.
Kiss her in the rain.

28. If your in love with her . . . TELL HER.


December awaits me.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

This Problematic of Mine (Labo)

A good friend told me yesterday:

Grabe Jinky, ang galing mo talaga. Lahat ng tao naibubuhos sa iyo ang problema nila, tapos you never fail to make us feel better.

For some reason, it's easier to solve a problem when it's not yours. It's the subjective aspect, I guess, that makes it difficult for us to solve our own problems. Notice, that when you attempt to deal with your own problems, more often than not, you feel helpless & can't seem to find a solution or at least some relief.

However, it's another thing altogether if you MAKE your own problems, or make something your own problem when it shouldn't be in the first place. (Did that make sense?) Like another good friend told me early yesterday evening:

'Yun kasi mahirap sa atin. Feeling natin we're to be blamed for everything. Pinapasan natin lahat ng problema.

Ok, ok. Guilty as charged.


My Friendster Horoscope for today:

You're not cold and impersonal, and you're probably quite tired of reading that astrological description of your sign. The truth is, you're just picky, and there's certainly nothing wrong with that. Once you find someone who measures up to your standards -- that is, someone who's entertaining, independent and intelligent -- you can be quite devoted. Someone who answers just that description may be along shortly. If you're already attached, prepare for a brand new best friend.

I'd like to believe I've found this person. But the question is, was he looking for me, too?

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Hoping for Love

My Friendster Horoscope for today:
A certain someone you spend an awful lot of time with is about to let you know that every minute you've invested has and will be well spent. You're set up to learn the depth and breadth of a loved one's feelings, and even if you're single, there's no way you'll miss the enormity of those same emotions coming to you via the casual utterances and behavior of someone you had no idea was as fond of you as they really are.
Well, the day's almost over. Nothing's happened. But I've got to admit, it's nice to hope.











The Keys to Your Heart



You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Buhos na, Ulan, at Lunurin Akong Tuluyan

It's been a loooong while since I poured in my thoughts here. I'm not really sure what's been happening to me. I feel that there's something in me that's going through a change, and that I've been afraid to face that fact for the longest time. I don't know what change is happening exactly. All I know is, I feel scared. Could this be just a case of Seniors Syndrome? Maybe. Maybe not...

On a lighter note, there's so much that has happened for the past couple of months...

Early last April, I attended the COA Formation Seminar where I got to meet the representatives of the different student organizations. I wasn't supposed to be there but I don't regret ever going. I learned so much from my fellow leaders. I made new friends, had a lot of laughs, shared a lot of insights. I was so inspired with the passion & dedication of the other org representatives (majority were the presidents). One of the most wonderful things I was enlightened about was the diffrences of all the SOA orgs. After that experience, I gained a deep admiration for each & every SOA org's mission.

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On the last few days of May, we had the ACIL Form Sem at Ate Citas' place in Tanay, Rizal. Before we left Manila, we finished the heavy work we could have done out of town. Even if we only had less than 3 days there, we all enjoyed ourselves & made a lot of memories. It really feels good that there are people who want to work for the same goals as you do & to have them become your friends is just the best bonus. I love you ACIL peeps!

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My phone got stolen 2 weeks ago. Nothing bad happened to me, thank God. The creep just got my phone from my backpack. I guess I was just too sleepy to notice that somebody was behind me unzipping my bag. Oh well. Got a new phone. Bought it with my own money. The one that got stolen was given to me by my parents for my 20th birthday. It was a Nokia 6600, camera phone & all that. I remember that when my parents gave me that phone, I wasn't very happy because it cost too much & they didn't have to spend too much money just for a gift for me. They were offended but they eventually forgot about it. Now, I have a Nokia 2300. It has something that the 6600 doesn't have that I've always wanted in a phone: an FM Radio. It's not colored nor does it have a camera. I don't care. I want my music! hahaha Oh, by the way, thanks to Miggy for my Globe sim card!Ü

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Oh, I have this song stuck in my mental record player. It's "Alay" by Imago. I really love the wordplay. The song is for a loved one who just passed away. Sounds morbid? Not really. It's a pretty nice eulogy for me -- the type that you shed tears of joy after you hear it.
Alay by Imago

Mamaalam
Tala kong may ngiti
Saglit lamang
May huling habilin

Sa gitna ng 'yong
paglalakbay
Sa dako mong ihihimlay
Dalhin ang payapa't
Pangakong wagas.
Patawad.

May lunas pa raw
Nananamlay mong diwa
S'yang may gamay
Ng malay mong tilang,
Hiram.
Itong minamata
Daang tinitimbang,
Dala, tangi kong
Alay.

Mamaalam
Sa mundong kay lupit
Sadya kayang
Nilihis ka sa pait

Sa gitna ng 'yong paghihimlay
Mangako kang maghihintay
Dalhin sa paglitis
Taglay na tamis.
Paalam.
My Friendster Horoscope for today:

If anyone is ready for romance, it's you. And the universe agrees, too -- so much so that you've been chosen to receive one of those wonderful evenings that only come along a few times a year. Think of it as having Ed McMahon, Santa Claus and Donald Trump show up on your doorstep with cash, tickets for two to the event of your choice and a limo -- oh, and the person you'd love to share it all with.

The odds of this happening tonight: NONE.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

A Lot Like Love

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet


What Kind of Kisser Are You?


Your #1 Love Type: INFP

The Idealist

In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.
For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.

Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.

Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ

Your #2 Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer

In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond.
For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate.

Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner.
However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad.

Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

Your #3 Love Type: INFJ

The Protector

In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.
For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.

Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.
However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.

Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

Your #4 Love Type: INTP

The Thinker

In love, you are honest and serious about commitment.
For you, sex is something you think about and desire a lot of the time.

Overall, you are pure in your affection and feelings.
However, you tend to be suspicious and distrusting at times.

Best matches: ENTJ and ESTJ

Your #5 Love Type: ISFP

The Artist

In love, you feel deeply and experience intense emotions.
For you, sex is serious. It's how you best express your feelings.

Overall, you are laid back, warm, and a good listener.
However, you tend to seem lazy and disinterested sometimes.

Best matches: ESFJ and ENFJ

Friday, June 10, 2005

Otso-Otso

Your Life Path Number Is

8


You are focused on learning the satisfactions to be found in the material world.

The Life Path 8 produces many powerful, confident and materially successful people.

You are apt to be very independent, forceful and competitive.


Your routine is involved in practical, down-to-earth affairs, and there is relatively little time for dreams and visions.

You will want to use your ambitions, your organizational ability, and your efficient approach to carve a satisfying niche for yourself.

Most of your concerns involve money and learning of the power that comes with its proper manipulation.


This Life Path is perhaps the one that is the most concerned with and desirous of status, as an accompaniment to material success.

You are endowed with tremendous potential for conceiving far-reaching schemes and ideas.

You also possess the tenacity and independence to follow them through to completion.

In short, you are well-equipped for competition in the business world or in other competitive fields of endeavor.


You know how to manage yourself and your environment.

You are practical and steady in your pursuit of major objectives, and you have the courage of your convictions when it comes to taking the necessary chances to get ahead.


The negative 8 can be dictatorial and often suppresses the enthusiasm and efforts of fellow member of the environment. Often, the strength of their own personality excludes close feelings for other people with whom they come in contact. Material gains and rewards often become issues of utmost importance, even to the neglect of family, home and peace of mind.

Dedication to success can become an obsession.

Emotional feelings are often suppressed by the negative 8, resulting in isolation and loneliness.

All Life Path 8 people must avoid discounting the opinions of others.

Monday, June 06, 2005

Today's Forecast

Checked out my Friendster account & saw my horoscope for the day:

Hope you're in the mood for love, because according to the stars, it's very much in the mood for you. Don't even bother with getting all gussied up -- it's your brain that's undeniably sexy now.

May meeting na naman akong pupuntahan mamayang 3:30PM-7PM. Andun kaya s'ya? Wahahaha asa pa ako!

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Bahala na si Batman

Schedule for this coming semester:

MWF:

830-930 Ph104 Foundations of Moral Value
230-330 Th151 The Catholic Commitment of Today's Filipino: A Synthesis

TTh:

730-9 Psy113 Abnormal Psychology
9-1030 Ed134 Educational Psychology
12-130 Psy 112 Research in Psychology I
3-430 Hi166 Philippine History

In all fairness to my TTh sched, I got everything I wanted. My MWF sched, however... *sigh*. Words are not enough to express my dismay.

To everyone who feels the same way, makararaos din tayo.

'Di tayo pababayaan ni Lord.Ü

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

4 out of 5 -- Not Bad


















Your #1 Match: INFJ


The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: INFP


The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ


The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or
child psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ISFP


The Artist

You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.

You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #5 Match: ENFJ


The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Why Not? Part 3

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Why Not? Part 2

Your Porn Star Name is

Sandra Spunk



Your Stripper Name is

Princess


Why Not?

Your Inner European is French!




Smart and sophisticated.
You have the best of everything - at least, *you* think so.

Kahon

Your Birthdate: February 2


Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.

The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.

Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.



You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection.

You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.

It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.


Saturday, May 21, 2005

Gurang

You Are 30 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

I.C.Y. Summer

Since April, I've been working at a preschool, Integrated Center for the Young, for my practicum. It's required, I don't get paid, but boy, am I having the time of my life!Ü Let the pictures do the talking...Ü

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That's me helping Lance with his sand art. Yaya Connie took the picture for me while we were working on our activity.

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That’s Ate Bujoy teaching Beginning Reading to Noah, Harley, Adrian, and Lance (not in photo). See the zoo poster with all the animals? I made all that.Ü

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From left to right: Reese, Lance, Ethan, JB, Alex.
They were our students in the Toddler Program last April. If you noticed, Lance is also here. And if you noticed also, they're wearing their pajamas. We were learning the letter P that day & what could be a better way of teaching the children that letter but with a Pajama Party!Ü By the way, Reese, Lance, & JB are still in the Toddler Program this May.Ü

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This is a cute moment taken during the Swimming Party that was held on the last day of the April classes (April 28).

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This is Teacher Mel’s female chow-chow, Domino. I met her on the day of the swimming party for the kids. Blue pala talaga ang dila nila. Kakaiba. It’s so hairy it looks like a lion. I wondered out loud what Domino’s hair would look like if it were rebonded. Hahaha

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Here's another shot of Domino. She's so beautiful!

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This is JB. He’s only 2 years old and he’s in my Toddler class. He’ll still be my student during the May classes. He has a really cute smile and he’s so huggable! He likes to dance, to count (he’s really good with numbers), and to swim. For some reason, he has a fixation to round or circular objects. Though he has mild autism, he responds well to people around him.

How to Eat an Oreo Cookie by Lance

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This is Lance. He is in both my 2 classes. He’s only 3 years old and yet he’s smarter than his classmates who are a year older than him. He knows all the letters and can even tell you what sound each letter makes. He’s really inquisitive with his endless series of why’s. Apart from asking so many questions, he talks a lot, and fast too. At first I had a hard time understanding what he was saying because he’s still using baby talk that’s really difficult to decipher. I’m glad I’ve gotten used to his babbling since I usually feed him his morning snack in between his 2 classes. One thing I will never forget is when I packed up his lunch box after he finished eating, he wrapped his tiny arms around me and gave me the sweetest hug ever.Ü

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This is Miki. She’s the daughter of Teacher Kelly. She isn’t my student but she’s very friendly and talkative. She also likes it when she is the center of attention (artista!). She has bright eyes and a sweet smile that just makes you wanna go, “Coochie-coochie-coo!” Her brilliant mind came up with this question last Wednesday while we teachers were having lunch: “Why is it raining? It’s summer!” Of course, we were all teachers there and couldn’t give her an answer she could understand. Hahaha

Ilocos: March 23-27

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Bantay

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Cherubim

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Where's the Corn?

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Dugtungan

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Gulong na Gate

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Sa May Bintana

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Farmer's Footbridge

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The Holy Family

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Vigan

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Aawitan Kita

Parang Kapiling
by Nyoy Volante

Sadyang kay hirap na ika'y mapalayo
Araw-gabi kang hinahanap
Bawat minuto ng bawat oras
Nais maramdaman iyong yakap

Alam ko na 'di maaari
Makapiling ka'y 'di muna mangyayari
Kaya't aking dinarasal lagi
Ang ikaw ay makausap marinig

Tangi kong hiling
Ang ngayo'y narito ka sa 'king piling
Ngunit kahit kay layo mo
Tila bang narito ka
'Pagkat sa tinig mo'y parang kapiling na

Alam ko na 'di maaari
Makapiling ka'y 'di muna mangyayari
Kaya't aking dinarasal lagi

Makausap ka at aking marinig

Tangi kong hiling
Ang ngayo'y narito ka sa 'king piling
Ngunit kahit kay layo mo
Tila bang narito ka
'Pagkat kung marinig ka lang

Puso ko'y sumasaya
Sa tinig mo mahal
Parang kapiling na

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Better Late Than Never

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Happy 19th Birthday
Matthew Anson C. Dy!
(uy! Xmas colors! hahaha)

Sa mga hindi nakakakilala kay Machoo, hindi s'ya 'yung nakasalamin na nasa picture. Si Mike 'yan. Si Machoo 'yung nakatalikod na nakapula at may hawak na cellphone. hahaha (Machoo, do you love your pic? hahaha) Anyway, aaminin ko 'di ko pinaniniwalaan ang "better late than never" excuse 'pag may birthday. What I meant was late itong paggawa ko ng blog. Pero maaga naman kitang binati, 'di ba?Ü Sana naging masaya ang kaarawan mo, kahit na busy kayo sa pag-aayos para sa defense n'yo nung araw na 'yun. hehe Good luck & God bless always! Isa ka'ng biyaya sa aking tiring days dahil sa kabag na ibinibigay mo sa akin, 'di lang 'pag magkasama tayo, kundi pati online. Kakaiba ang galak na idinudulot mo sa lahat ng iyong mga kaibigan. Hinding-hindi ka talaga malilimutan! (Cue in music: "Hindi kita...malilimutan.." with matching dance hahaha) Tawa pa tayo!Ü

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

I'm Oh-So Naturale

Need I say more? *wink* ;) hahaha

Your Seduction Style:

The Natural



You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen. Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people. You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find! People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.